well then..
i really dont have much to say at the moment, but i thought id touch base. ive lost 21 lbs so far.. so the diet is going well. even with going to a wedding and eating some of the most wonderful food ive ever had, including the worlds best cupcakes.. i still lost weight. so im quite pleased with that whole thing. the diet food isnt the greatest, but its not the worst either. besides, im losing weight. i honestly cant complain. my clothes are getting smaller, im getting smaller and it feels great!
the wedding i went to was a blast and like i said the food was amazing, the bride was amazing.. fuck, the whole thing was just gorgeous. definitely the kind of wedding i had dreams about as a little girl. however, now that im older.. id rather keep it simple. in fact the more simple, the better. im thinking like me, my fiance, the person marrying us and maybe a couple friends for witnesses.. but honestly, who knows if thatll ever happen. im not holding my breath, thats for sure.
even with the whole diet thing going for me.. i still know that at the end of it all.. i still wont look the way i want. my body will never be that perfect body, even if i get down to 100, which i wont cause i think thats too much.. but still. i know i should be happy with the way its working in my favor as is.. but i cant help just thinking what it would be like to be that girl with the perfect body. the one all the boys want and all the girls wanna be like. instead ill be half my size with a body that.. well lets face it, ive been in a chair since i was about seven.. im coming up on almost 20 years of dealing with it.. so you can imagine the shape im in.. literally, its like an “S” shape in a sense.. my legs dont go completely straight, my spine curves thanks to good ol’ scoliosis, my feet curve in from years of sitting on my leg even tho i shouldnt have, but i did cause it made my back feel better.. blah
regardless, i am very happy about the weight loss and the continuing with it.. i just hope that my confidence picks up somewhere along the way.. i know its there… its just a matter of breaking it out of its shell..
Congrats on the weight loss! That’s an awesome accomplishment!
thank you so much! i have to admit, the Wii is an awesome way to exercise with my limited mobility. its definitely been a big part of it ;D
Congratulations on your weight loss! You have a very positive attitude and outlook so I know you will continue down the path! Nice post!
:) thank you! im trying to be all about the positive mental attitude.. ill get there, lol